Coming Out

I'm proud of who I am.
I've accepted every part of me:
The geek,
The socially awkward,
Who I could fall in love with.

I'm not out of the closet
Yet.
I'm not ashamed,
I know this is who I am.
I'm just not sure anyone needs to know.
Is it any of their business?
But it feels weird,
Keeping this secret.
Especially from those closest to me.

They'll be fine, I'm sure.
I've been subconsciously hinting for the last two years -
Choice of TV shows,
Favourite characters,
Opinions in debates.

But what if they're not?
No, I don't think that.
I know they'll accept me.

It's the actual telling.
Some details are obvious -
Wait until we're face to face.
"Sit down,
I need to talk to you."
But then what?
Come straight out with it?
Ramble about nerves?
Tell the story of how I realised?
So much fuss.

Once that's over with
I don't need to tell anybody
Until I find someone.
It's none of their business.
But I won't deny it.

I don't make it obvious.
It doesn't mean I'm not proud.