Never Anyone

I'm tired of waiting.

Everyone else gets a taster -
Clumsy primary school kisses,
Cheesy Valentine's cards,
Playful flirting, honing skills,
High school "loves",
Walking down a corridor hand-in-hand,
Stealing kisses between classes,
Acting lovey-dovey and ridiculous,
Slow dances at school discos.

I know it's stupid,
That none of that stuff really means anything
But I can't help but feel I've missed out.
I want to listen to love songs
And actually know what they're talking about.

I'm not going to try to rush things.
I've already thrown away one first.
I don't regret it, much.
Just -
For once someone was
Interested in me,
Looked at me as more than a friend.
I'm not used to that
And I liked it.

I'm confident in myself,
I know I'm not
Unattractive.
I'm waiting for someone else to
Notice that.